SO STRESSED!

Even though it is my last semester and I am only taking 12 credits, I AM SO STRESSED OUT RIGHT NOW! 

I have loved my down time that I have had this semester compared to other semesters, but this week there is no such thing as down time. I am in all but one 300-400 level classes and I feel like the big assignments are all getting piled on me this week, The week that has been the barrier of bad news. But that is just how life works. Unexpected things happen all the time.

The class stressing me out the most is my Argumentation and Debate class and next week we need to have 20 sources ready as well as have a debate ready. The only thing is, I have no idea how to go about this debate AT ALL. The people we are debating against already know what they are doing and get what they are doing and I'm sitting here like, Ummmmmmmmmmmm,,,,,,, What?

Next week this time, I will be packing to go home for a long weekend. I haven't been home since summer. I am so excited, I just need to make it through the next week. Lord help me.

I'm sure many of you can compare to my feelings. What is stressing you out?

Fall.

There is something about the season of Fall that makes me happy. I always thought that I was a summer lover, but each year I get older the more I fall in love with Fall. It might be something about all the pumpkin patches, the brisk chilly sweater weather, or simply the colors of the leaves. When I was a child my parents brought me to apple orchards and pumpkin patches every year. We would pick the biggest pumpkins to carve while eating caramel apples. It may be a coincidence that the most fun part about the school year, in high school and college, is always right around Fall. There is football games to look forward to, Homecoming, and Halloween parties. It is weird to think that this is the fourth and last Fall as a college student. I wonder what I will be doing this time next year. Will I be working? Searching for a job? One thing is for sure, I will be enjoying the love I have for Fall every bit I can until the snow falls once again. 

(Last year at the Holmberg Orachard. Vesta, MN)

But it's a Pug!!!

Lately, I have had puppy fever. There is a page on Facebook, called MN Pets for Sale Group, that I look at ALL the time! I am SO ready for my own little puppy. The only thing is...

I live in an apartment that doesn't allow pets

Now, I wouldn't make any stupid decisions, like sneaking one into my apartment, or having it live with a friend (that's just mean), but there has been so many puppies that have been hard to pass up.

Especially this PUG!!!

If any of you know me well, then you would know that ever since I was little I wanted a pet pug. I think they are the cutest things ever.

Anyways, the hard part is seeing people who AREN'T responsible that have dogs already and I think, "GOD I AM TOTALLY WAY MORE RESPONSIBLE THAN THEM I SHOULD HAVE ONE!!!!!!!!!"

but then I remember... I'll be moving home in less than a year, and it would be mean to keep moving my dog to different homes. Also, I go home to visit a lot. I would either have to find someone to watch my dog or I would have to bring it everywhere I go.

But after seeing this cute little puppy face it's hard not to just say, "WHO CARES!"

Does this mean I'm getting old...?

I go on Facebook now and see so many people that are getting engaged and announcing their pregnancies. The oddest part about this is that they are all my age, if not younger! I work with a couple, who are my age, who have been together for a year and got married within that year. It is so odd to me! Good for them that they actually found someone they are SURE they want to be with forever! But here I am, (yes I have a boyfriend, and it will be going on two years in December) I'm not even thinking about being engaged or married or pregnant. The funny thing is, when I was a child I thought I would be married by now, trying to have a baby like my parents did. NOT EVEN CLOSE!!! The thing I am looking forward to is finishing college at the end of this semester. The couple I mentioned earlier just announced THEY ARE PREGNANT!!! and they figured their conception date was three days after their wedding... WHAT!? I must be getting old.

21st Birthdays

Well, it's official. All of my friends that I have been waiting to turn 21 are finally 21, give or take a few. I am now 22. Still feel like I am 21. It is odd to think that the year I've been waiting for my whole life is over with. Now I don't have a birthday to look forward to. Anyways, 21st Birthdays. They are all the same. A drink during the day. Dinner. Bar. The day that people wait for their whole life is overrated. Sure, it is an excuse to celebrate, but the standards for 21st Birthdays are so much. I literally had a friend who reminded us everyday that her Birthday was coming up. She begged us to throw a surprise party for her, which we did. And she still says she was surprised. On my 21st all I wanted to do was be with the people that mattered to me. I went to a restaurant on a lake with maybe ten friends and I had a blast. All the recent 21st Birthdays and all the big plans got me wondering why didn't I do something bigger? Why didn't I plan a party and put it on Facebook? But I had to remember I didn't want a big party. We all have to remember, it's the little things in life that matter.

My Time Spent

I have been in college now for over three years. My time here, as a student, waitress, classmate, or roommate is about to be over. There are many things that I will take away from this place. The memories I have with all of my friends, the nights where I felt like I was invincible, the studies that I completed. I always found myself wondering, did I make the right decision, did I meet the right friends, am I at the right place in life? A lot of these questions got answered throughout my three years here while in college. I like to think these times will be the best times of my life. But I also tend to think I can't wait to get out of this place and finally have a normal life. However, I am certain about one thing, my friends I met here in will always be my friends. I am so happy that I met the girls that I did. College is nothing without them. This blog is meant for whatever is on my mind and my experiences throughout the last semester of college.